Wednesday Shwednesday

Happy Wednesday.

About my calf.

My left leg was very swollen yesterday, much larger than my right. I noticed it because my jeans were tight on one leg. I didn't think too much of it. Went home, ran some errands, went to dinner... it just seemed to get worse. I looked it up on Web MD (thanks Jennifer) and it said IF ONLY ONE OF YOUR CALVES ARE SWOLLEN SEEK PROMPT MEDICAL ATTENTION! I started to get a little worried but decided to go to sleep. I woke up this morning to 5 missed calls, 4 text messages, 1 voicemail, and numerous facebook comments telling me to go to the ER. Ok, that was a little scary so I got up and called my sister to come stay with the girls. All I got out was, I need a big favor. I need you to come over here... Then I started crying.. I couldn't talk so I handed the phone to John but my sister had hung up. I composed myself and called her back.. ♥ she was already on her way.  After convincing the husband to go to work, that I would be ok, I headed to the ER. When I got there I felt like they weren't taking me very seriously. My leg had gone down a lot but it was still a little swollen. They did an ultrasound to make sure there were no clots and told me it could be fluid retention (in one leg, how weird) or I might have strained or overworked the muscle. Either way I am ok so far.. just a little crampy. I'll keep everyone posted.

I have totally fallen off the Love Dare wagon.. I'm jumping back on though! I'm going to start with the day I stopped and I will blog about it tomorrow. I think I let drama get in the way. I had a falling out with a friend and it was really so stupid, but I don't think it would have been as bad as it was if a certain person would have minded their own business.

It's crazy how we react when are feelings are hurt. I'm the type that closes up. I don't talk to you. Not because I never want to talk to you again,  just because I need time. Ask anyone I have been friends with for more than a few years.. eventually I get over it. I don't need to discuss it, or wait for an apology, or be hateful. It just goes away and I remember all the reasons we were friends to begin with.

I just received the sweetest email ever as I was typing this blog that shows me I am a good friend.

Here it is:

Friend:

I just wanted to say thank you for being my friend. That is all. You may now continue with your day.

ME:

You are very very very welcome.
Thank you for being mine.

It's amazing out of all the crazy drama in the past that our friendship is the only one that has made it through!

Friend:

I know right!!! I was just thinking about all that, and it really made me appreciate you so I felt it necessary to say thank you. You really are one of the my best friends and I feel proud to call you that ☺ And no I have not been drinking, I am still at work.

It's nice to get compliments every once in awhile, it reminds you that you are doing something right.

Ok, I have something to confess.. Before yesterday it had been awhile since I had really prayed. I normally use my ride to work as my time to talk to God. But I had stopped.. I'm not even sure when. Then a couple months ago I found out about something that really bothered me and I questioned my faith, I know that is horrible but I am just being honest. I questioned God and couldn't understand why things happen to some people and not to others. Yesterday I realized what I had done. I realized that it had been forever so I prayed... on my way to work, just as I would have before. Today on my way to work I was looking around and noticed a license plate.. I thought the plate said John 4:27. I made a mental note to look up that scripture... well when I got closer to that car I realized the plate actually said JDN 427. Was God trying to tell me something? 

Just now I googled John 4:27.. the heading before the verse says "The Disciples Rejoin Jesus".. 

hmmmmm... something to think about.